is not very good, as i haven't written in a FUCKING long time. But i'm having a really rough night so I thought it would help me a little to write. i
didn't edit it at all i just needed to post it somewhere so i would feel like i accomplished something
Physical distance should also
(Automatically, by rights)
Mean emotional distance.
Especially when said distance
Was not chosen
Nor even expected by the 2nd party.
What I would give to feel…
Stoicism? Just a façade.
Rough and tumble?
Again, a façade, a glimpse of the girl I wish I were.
Instead, I cry, tremble, shiver, gasp.
Want to wipe my tears?
You can’t, even if you could, you wouldn’t.
Because you don’t care about me.
It’s time for me to face that fact
With a chill in my lungs, heart, and spine,
I will no longer feel for you
The way I did; instead, I will only ache for you,
As you probably intended for all along.
You got what you wanted, I’m a helpless heap on the floor
And you are welcome to trod all over me with no fight at all.
Walk, stomp, grind your heels
As I grovel and wallow and fear.